Regressing toward Childhood

My time in Peru thus far has been such a good reminder of how much I do not know. There have been many times where I put my life in the hands of thirteen year olds to get me to where I need to be. It has been a challenge to swallow my pride time and time again when I have to ask a six year old to repeat himself, because I am unable to understand. Of course, he does not know why I don't speak his language and gets frustrated or shy. As the weeks have gone by, I have felt at a loss with my limited vocabulary in Spanish. There have been many things that I have wanted to say, but by the time I have an idea of what it would be like in Spanish, the opportunity has come and gone. Mostly, this happens with the teenagers in the church. There have been many times where I have wanted to talk to them more about their walk with our Savior, but by the time I figure out the words in Spanish, they are usually gone. It has been frustrating, to be honest, but as always, God's Word has proved to be a comfort. A dear woman in my church and language helper, Ana pointed out some verses to me the other day when I was trying to explain how things have been going. Ana went to Jeremiah 1:5-9 where God reminds Jeremiah of his ordination as a prophet. Verse six characterizes my attitude so often, "Ah. Lord God! behold, I cannot speak: for I am a child." Too often, I choose to hold my tongue and not speak when I really should try. Verse seven, then has been a huge encouragement to me, knowing that I am unable to do anything without God's help. "But the Lord said unto me, Say not, I am a child: for thou shalt go to all that I shall send thee, and whatsoever I command thee thou shalt speak." When there have been times of doubt or discouragement, I am reminded that I am, right now, doing God's will. He has led me to Peru at this specific time. He knows the difficulties that I have faced and will face, yet He has promised to be with me all the way- never leaving nor forsaking. Though often I feel as a child, God's constant help and presence has been a huge blessing. Please be in prayer for me as daily I seek to communicate God's truth of His Word to the people that I come in contact with each day.